8th/November/2004 19:15PM - The truth....

The hardest part of the military they don't show on T.V. It is not the fighting. It is not the war. It doesn't always happen when you deploy or go TDY (Temp duty). It happens everyday of our lives. By "our" lives I mean the men and women of the service. We fight everyday. Sometimes more than once. We fight loneliness, heartache, the feeling of emptiness. Away from family, friends, girlfriends, boyfriends, fiances, and the very freedom that we fight for. We become comfortable and then are forced to move. We make friends but they will shortly leave us. Everyday someone leaves and someone new comes in. Everyday someone deploys or goes TDY. Everyday we deal with this, but it is not on the news. We breakup with the person that we spent enough of our tour with to love but not enough to marry. We go through excersise after excercise. Some of us working 12 hours or more and some of us even at night. We go through these times with "family" that will some day leave. Day in and day out a friend goes away. Every sun sets on a relationship or two. The hardest part is living this everyday. Not by choice, but by association. We spend our time saving up leave to go on a vacation to see family. We spend our money flying half way around the world to get home. We spend days having a goodbye parties. We spend almost 24 hours with these people with no gaurantee of ever seeing them again after our tour is through. We see friends in pain. This gives homesick a whole new meaning. The freedoms we fight for don't apply to us. The laws that you follow are ten fold for us. We live them everyday. Our feet are on the ground that shifts constantly. Having to hold on temporary fixtures before one day you turn around to hold on and they are gone.
I chose this life and I will continue to live it. I guess all I can do is close my eyes and see where life takes me. You see the hardest thing about the military is not on the news.... it is in our acheing hearts. The military is more than life and death. It is a life.

17th/October/2004 21:03PM

18th/September/2004 20:56PM - Back in the states....

After a short layover in the acores. I am in Baltimore waiting for 0515 tommorrow to head to FL. I am so excited. I am also exhausted I have not slept at all and it is about 0200 my time.... grrr... oh well. I can officially say that I have been to the little islands by portugal. That is cool. I just can't wait to get home and be with my family.


On a sad note. I miss Eddie. i really wish he was here with me. I would be having an even better time if that were the case. Oh well enough complaining....

Welll I am going to walk around or something. this place closes at about 2200ish so I have to hang out in the airport until tomorrow. Updates should follow once I get home. but for now.....

GOD BLESS THE USA cause I am finally home!

Cheers
Erin Nicole ><>

4th/August/2004 19:05PM - Quick Update....

Okay yeah that was quick... I got bored before I started.

11th/July/2003 3:26AM - SORRY FRIENDS ONLY

Name: Erin
Age: July 10, 1984 ( That Makes Me 19 )
Location: Mildenhall, UK

Well I have some personal stuff and some non-personal stuff in my journal, so if you want to read about my life for some strange reason just leave a comment and I may add you. Look at my information and maybe you can find something in common and we can get to know each other.

Thanks for stopping by.
Cheers,
Erin